Random Thoughts on this Scary World

In this Darwinian world, where the one on top of the food chain wins, and the most adaptable of all survives. Maybe similar rules apply to the human world, especially because we have not totally dissociated ourselves from this wretched side of this planet.

That explains why cockroaches have survived where dinosaurs have not, and why lions do not get preyed on easily. And why in order to get out alive in this dog-eat-dog world, we have to be the deadlier dog. And to win the rat race, we have got to be the better-equipped rat. It is preposterous to think that we can fight against the Darwinian process with mere reason and kindness, you either need to include more virtues or completely change it to align it with what's more important to yourself.

Sometimes it depends on the environment that you are in, and in the unfortunate event that you have no choice but to resort to activating your Darwinian mechanism, then gaining the higher ground has then become a necessity for you. Otherwise, you will stay at the bottom of the food chain, lose out in the societal hierarchy, get pushed around and be forced to make choices that you don't want. You will live your life like a puppet if you stay where you are.

And in order to not degenerate into such a deep entanglement, you always have to realise that the world is against you and you have no choice but defend yourself from whatever the world throws at you - you never know what's gonna knock you out cold. That being said, it means that whatever gives you competitive advantage must then be something you actively work towards, because if you don't, you might not like where it leads you to. After all, if you have chosen to participate in the rat race, what choice do you have but to win it to feed yourself?

Must Read

http://www.nytimes.com/2011/10/30/opinion/mona-simpsons-eulogy-for-steve-jobs.html

Bersih 2.0 Rally - July 9th

Malaysia Cracks Down on Protestors

Okay you may ignore the exaggerated music but that alone can't make this video so saddening. Watch the video below:

First up, Bersih 2.0 began as a coalition of 60+ NGOs demanding for reforms to Malaysia's electoral process, of which one of them include cleaning up the electoral roll that contains many registered voters that should have been DEAD by now, otherwise Malaysia should be holding the world record for having the oldest people in the world!

Okay so when their demands were not entertained by the Elections Commission and the government, peaceful demonstration was the only way to show how many people support the demands by Bersih 2.0. And of course, what else would our insane Home Minister do other than declaring the assembly illegal without a police permit and arresting anyone caught promoting the rally on July 9th? Not just that, Bersih 2.0 is also declared an illegal organisation under some Registrar of Societies Act and hence a police permit will not be given even if they wanted to apply for one. And as all these complications pile on top of each other, making it impossible for the peaceful demonstration to be at all legal, arrests are efficiently being made on supporters wearing the yellow Bersih T-shirts.

What about our dear Prime Minister Najib? Nothing much, just offered a stadium for the rally and when the rally organisers have graciously accepted his offer, he then lets the police decide on whether to allow the rally! What kind of PM is this! And of course the police won't, especially under the orders of the Home Minister! Yeah, offer a stadium and then asking your colleague to prevent the rally, very intelligent idea! What's more, a day after the rally he was apparently grateful that no one was injured and making the most irresponsible statement ever: "We offered a stadium for the gathering, but unfortunately, to my deep regret, they rejected the offer.". Screw you la.

What the hell is wrong with you guys! All Bersih wants is just a peaceful demonstration that is entitled under Article 10 of the Constitution of Malaysia, but that is not even possible. Threats of security huh? Look at the videos and tell me who are the ones committing brutality and violence? Citizens wearing black uniforms?

Malaysia, 54 years of age. Unfortunately, has not grown up much but instead degenerated into a nation that suppresses the rights of its own people. This, I believe, is what you get from a nation with many who are not politically conscious, because of the very fact that the government had been elected by no other than Malaysian citizens themselves.

At least that is what I would like to believe to be the crux of the issue, after taking out the possibility of any acts of dishonesty in the elections. Well I do not blame them because almost all of our mainstream media are owned by one of the political parties that form the current government. Media does brainwash a lot of people as much as product advertisements on TV do to you! Not just that, even the ulamas do their biddings for their political masters! What kind of country is this? I just can't tolerate all these nonsense that happens in Malaysia already!

And I haven't even begun ranting about Ibrahim Ali.

This is going nowhere. I'm going to stop before I waste too much time on things that aren't gonna make any difference anytime soon.

Home

I want to say "I feel like going home." but home is not where I want to be. I will be my own home.

Gah. It sucks. It's already May 14th. I am not making any real progress.

I feel uncomfortable. The one-year relationship has just ended and I don't feel like I have done anything. I do not have anything that I am proud of. All I have is regrets, albeit the fact that the only way to move forward is to put the past behind you.

I feel like I have wasted my whole year. What for? I don't even know.

I feel like a fake. And I do feel the guilt. A paralysing guilt. I cannot do this anymore:

1. I will not do anything that I don't want to do anymore.
2. I will do things only for myself.
3. I will stay true to myself, my principles and most of all, my heart.
4. I will be determined and stand strong till I have done all I can.
5. I will never do things that I know I will regret!
6. I have to rediscover my passion!

Bah. I hope I can live up to my own promises.

I am going to first deactivate my Facebook account. Fuck you facebook!

Random mental rant without thinking

I shall fucking score this exam!

Yes I'm in exam mode now, thank god! This year was an eventful year, taught me lots of stuffs about life and people. Things that were so obvious yet so oblivious to me for so damned long, now I'm just grateful that I've seen them and dealt with them. I feel like an adult and think like one now, it is really refreshing to finally realise that my thinking was stuck at 16 years old, and I thought I was precocious! Yes, complacency is like the worst thing to have and that is why it took 4 years for me to realise that I am so damned outdated and I really need a fresh perspective on my life and the world around me.

People, they're just so interesting. Never will I be the super nice guy and think everyone's a nice guy anymore. To think everyone had their appropriate reasons for their actions, what was I even thinking? Some people are just so ugly on the inside I feel a loath so overwhelming that I feel like writing their names in the Death Note. Yes, I feel so evil this year and this is so not me. Whatever happened to the nice and calm-headed Au Yong Min Hao? Did the world corrupt you like it did to everyone single growing human? I hope it did, in a good way. I hope that this eventful experience is at least useful in my life, oh yes it will, I can hear myself say.

Man. Life. It hurts to be idealistic.

Okay, short post only this time. I'll come back and hug you after my exams alright. Bye blog!